The Void and Neztra

Well, I didn't get the job I wanted. They hired someone else who was willing to take 10,000 a year less than my salary requirement. In part, I am not upset about this because I wouldn't want to work for a company not willing to pay their talent what they are worth. On the other hand, I really need a job.

I am trying to be patient and believe that the right job is out there waiting for me.

But I've come to believe that waiting is the hardest game to play.

I recently moved from Atlanta, where I had an incredible job with a company who shall remain nameless, in Marketing. I was there for six years. I established incredible friendships and working relationships, and was promoted three times without even seeking to be promoted. My work spoke for itself and people needed me.

So why am I having such a hard time finding a good job here in Dallas? I ended up taking a five month contract position because I wasn't able to find anything permanent and now I am on the job hunt again. I've been on three interviews in the past two weeks and no call backs. One interview went incredibly well and the hiring manager really seemed to like me. I was there on Thursday, now it is Tuesday. Is it too early to be worried that I haven't heard anything back? I am starting to become a neurotic mess! I need a job! It isn't a money issue right now, but more of a, I need to find my place issue.

I am such a mental mess right now...

How important is it to you to have a personal soundtrack? For some, perhaps it isn't even a point that has been pondered once in their existence. For me, my soundtrack changes daily, but their are songs that have been running in the background of my personal film for many, many years. Here is a list of constants in my soundtrack song list:

• Roads by Portishead
• To Wish Impossible Things by the Cure
• The Other Side by Morphine
• Riders on the Storm by the Doors
• Bedshaped by Keane
• Piece of my Heart by Janis Joplin
• Next Lover by James
• Never is a Promise by Fiona Apple
• Novocaine for the Soul by the Eels
• World of Two by Cake
• My Lover's Gone by Dido
• 'Til the End of Time by Delerium
• I Can't Be With You by the Cranberries
• The Wind Cries Mary by Jimi Hendrix

There are others, but these are the ones that stand out the most for me. I had no idea I had such a sad soundtrack. It is very interesting to discover. Try this for yourself. See what you come up with. For me, I am a little scared of myself.